Love made me changed in the same way I lost trust in LOVE♥

Its been a long time I didn't write my blog ..
Some old post have been delete :/But I wonder Why I decide to write it now to express my emotion .. hehhe: 33

So .. we have broke up for one months ago ..
But I'm still like an idiot
Still loving you after every things you did what broke my heart into thousand pieces ...
I still have feelings for you and
no matter how many times I tell myself that ..
I'm better off without you ..
a part of me just won't let go: '(
I did tried and tried and tried
but ...
FAILED!

I keep telling myself that you're not willing to be there for me anymore ..
Everyone is scolding me that why I still cry for the one that not worth for me.
Why? I asking myself as well seriously ..
Every night just thinking all the memories about you and me ♥
Got sadness, arguement, hurt, heartbroken but also have happy moment.
And I realize ..
You stole my happiness and made me cry ..: '(

Boy ..
I can guarantee ..
I never treat my bf before as good as the way I treat you ..
I did every things just tried to make you happy
But every time ..
Every things I did in yours eyes .. its just not good enough for you ...
oh please .. I'm just a human .. no one is perfect ..
I'm ain't God ..: (

In this one months ..
I learned a lot of things
Never love someone who never appreciate you
If they don't appreciate you, they don't deserve you.
Never cared for the one doesn't worth for it ..
Stop worrying about people that aren't worried about you.
Thanks for teaching me what love isn't is.

I knew I have made all of them worry me again and again
just because of my emotion .. doing stupid stuff .. silly things to hurt myself ...
cut my hand?
threw the medicine in the toilet?
though we still can be with each others?
cry every single at night under blanket?
I'm such a idiot in LOVE.

I'm felt speechless to my ownself: (
Disappointed ..

But EXODUS
they made me strong ..
made me happy ..
let me know there is still got a lot of ppl who care a lot for me.

I promised myself.
I don't want to make them worry about me anymore.

Everythings is over.
You're not even mine anymore.
Is the time to move on and let you go.
No matter how hard .. I have to do my best ♥
♥ Love doesn't need to be perfect, it needs to be true.

My Dearest Ricky ♥

Dear
How can you did it ?!!
You make me cry T^T
BUT ..
Is the touching cry ♥
You this sweetiest boyfriend♥
Surprise me twice in Valentine'S Day 
in the same time make me cry twice even more than twice in that day too ♥

I never meet a boy like you can make me so touch until cry ♥
And you are the first boyfriend dance for me ♥
I love seii you arh !!♥
You're the only love I'll need ♥

In my life you're all that matters
In my eyes the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me
 when I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you, I need you ♥

Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through

Because of you, it's all brand new
My life is now worthwhile
I can't imagine me without you ♥

I love you ♥
I thankss GOD let me meet you <3

Here is all the things you do for me in Valentine's Day♥

The camera that I wanted for a long time ♥

AND

The things I always wanted you do for me and you always say don't want ,

But .. you did it for me ♥

You dance for me !! ( T~~T )♥

It really make me cry like hell !!♥

Dear
I love you ♥
THANKS you for do everythings for me just wanted to make me smile and happy ..
I'm really glad to having you this boyfriend .. opps!~ no boyfriend is my lou goong :D
My forever gea lou gong !! 

Like I never ever loved no one before you , YOU'RE MINE ♥

I'm yours forever and ever ♥